| Gotta post to save my Xanga site. I'd be sad to lose all of my posts. They are sort of like a journal. |
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| Maybe I'm slow, or on time, or early but I guess that is saying there is a predefined path and I'm not just taking my own. Lets say I've hit a point where I feel almost entirely confused in everything I think and do in my life expect when in comes to music which continues to give me life and direction. The world has become desensitized in me. Things are the same, yet, I perceive and especially "feel" them very differently then I did a few years ago. I think it is more that now I perceive more than feel things. I've left behind wonder, blissfull confusion and mystery for the glory of understanding. HAHA. I figured I'd type that since I laughed out loud when I finished typing that last bit. The last time I had a genuine feeling of simply feeling something unique was when I was flying back from visiting my sister in North Carolina. I was listening to Explosions in the Sky and staring out the plane window at the patches of humanity below me lit slightly by the moon overhead and patterned like a circuit board. There are no words to describe the feeling it was just simply something unique but something close to what I used to feel a lot more when I was younger. A lasting sensation that hits me every time I hear that the music I was listening to. The funny thing is I'm not unhappy about this loss of old sensations. A new horizon has opened up and the old has become sweetly nostalgic. I think I am just confused because I don't understand the new plain I am seeing right now and confusion shouldn't be a barier that says "don't enter" but one that welcomes further understanding. This is what my soul craves and I hope what is innate in me leads me in the right directions. |
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| I may be dropping off the map, so to speak, for a while. A lot of stuff in my life has been hitting the fan recently and I really need to focus on my direction in life. There is so much to be done that I'm not sure how often I will have free time in the next few months. To my friends, please don't feel like I'm ignoring you. I just simply need to get my life in a more pointed direction and it is going to require a lot of work and focus. I'm really excited lately becuase a lot is happening in my life right now and opportunities for pushing my life forward are popping up in a lot of places.
But now its 2:30 in the morning and I have to sleep.
Goodnight Xanga. |
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| We, The People, phonic-bomb: brazen minds and inward calm.
I rarely put my bands music on my sites. This is a first draft of the new recording, but I love it too much to let it not be heard by at least a few of my friends. |
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